Monday, February 25, 2008

i need a new good computer

one that is compatable with my 37"tv it has a pc in plug but i dunno how to do all of that. my comp just crashed during saving of my chest color piece, officially corrupting it the night before it is gettin put on crit watch for tutorial. i will be up for the duration of the night trying to redo what was lost, which was a shitton.
hope all goes well with you guys and your work!

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Pushing onward...

...to destiny!!!! things are picking up despite negative attitudes from faculty here at the Art Academy. Almost halfway there, colour palette decisions are being finalized, my right arm is almost complete along with my chest. that leves the left arm and back, print, frame and hang alll before April 5. on pace, on track....all that's left is prayer and of course the thesis paper. good luck to you all!!!
...until then...

Friday, February 15, 2008

peace of mind......

... after another virtually sleepless night i have come to the realization that i may very well be going insane! what was i writing in my previous post? venting frustrations into a blog when that should be put forth into art, that was my quest of the night, and i succeeded in completing those 2 pieces for you Mr. Henson, a mere 12 hours after your request.maybe it will be 4 by the time you get back from your week off, you never know!
on to the next set of work the AIGA review poster designs, of which Christy I know you will probably go insane about my poor design qualities, and that's ok. learn from the mistakes you make and build upon their foundations greatness.
anger control and personal things should be my main concern, i fly off the handle without hesitation anymore now, which is scary after spending years of my youth in counceling for just that.

what is the new wave of art to go with the academics that we discussed in class 2 days ago...i think i have to sit on that over the weekend and really think about it before i post again, i want it to be right and not something that just fulfills the assignment.
...until then...

Thursday, February 14, 2008

i just don't understand...

sorry to those who may take my venting the wrong way but here it goes...

"Prove us wrong" they said to me.
Well in that case...since school can't refund my tuition, I will.
You'd better be ready, because if you all thought i was slacking you should be ashamed. I have been working my fingers to the bone, i have lost 20... yea 20... POUNDS of weight that i can't afford to lose just so i can be here this year, and you bastards tell me i should take some time off, you make me SICK.

I know my thesis wasn't that good, and I haven't shown you a ton and a half of work, but at least i'm working, i am trying, and i am sacrificing almost everything, just to get a little respect and peace of mind. i've been here almost 5 years now, and never have i felt so disrespected.i don't even know why, maybe because some think i don't care, that i'm slacking, that this is a conscious decision on my part to totally screw myself in my senior year, i wish that was the case it would make more sense that way.
wow that felt good to get off my chest, and you all know how i feel and that makes it all the better.
And the final showdown continues, i will continue to do what i have been doing, i will have my work done, ON TIME along with my thesis.

heres the list and number of pieces that will be ready for my show, some of which are done now i just haven't had the convience to transport to school due to size and framing issues.

1 fine art pieces displaying my chest/sides tattoo designs
1 fine art piece displaying my back tattoo design

chest layout with figure outline layout
left side figure layout
right side figure layout
back figure layout
right arm layout
left arm layout
that's 14 finished pieces plenty for a show, and plenty for my paper.
*note that the above list outside of the fine art pieces will be accompanied by digital prints of the designs over-layed onto my figure as example of the design continuity and application.

pass or fail this year i know i did my best and that's all that matters, with or without a diploma in my hand...with or without it...it doesn't matter anymore.i'm not giving up, i'm just playing by my rules now.

i will do all that i can for my exhibition group whatever you guys need just let me know, i'll be there for you, anything... i mean that with the wholeness of my heart and soul. you all asked me to show with you, and i thought no one would do that, thank you :)

hope all is well for everybody and that your papers and works are going along well. 3 more months guys and gals...3 more months...

...until then...

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

...sorry i'm so late with this...

yet another post reflecting the mind of a starving artist. thesis work continues along at pace, a few kinks in the road earlier put me back a few days but i made up for it this weekend. punishing myself to sleepless nights just so class can be canceled, figures. but at least i have work up, and that work reflects my inner cosmos, calm amidst chaos. the title of the main chest and side piece is Keepers of The Grove. kinda fits, i am thinking on using that title but in Latin to keep in stride with my roots in catholic faith. good idea?

still searching...waiting...wondering, praying (great now i rhyme. lolz) on to the next project whilst current work is hanging at school. focusing on my arms, heaven and hell, inner demons and relentless divinity, ever present as it currently may seem.rambling again, back to drawing.

the journey continues, enjoy the ride.
...until then...